I'm Ivan. A frosh at the Philippine Normal University and soon to be a Physics professor. I'm sixteen years old and I love dancing. I'm not straight nor bisexual.
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I want to go to a place where I can start all over. A place where I can start a new life and start loving it for the rest of my life. I want to escape this world where I already messed up. In the place where I can start again, I will make new memories. Memories that will last because all of the memories I’m going to make are happy memories that are good to remember. I will also spread happiness and love in the place where I’m going to start all over again. I promise that in the new world that I’m going to live in, people will feel good about me. Also, people will love me because I’m going to live in that new world as myself already. I will not hide things about myself, I will start being the real me. Maybe, people will love me more in this new world because I already learned in my past that pretending to be like others is not a good thing to do. What I’m going to do also in my new world is that I’m going to enjoy my life like its just me who owns it, like there’s no one who will hate me if I’m going to love this feeling and enjoy it.
I want to erase all the bad memories I’ve made in my old and real world. I want to escape all of these feelings that are not good to feel and think about. I want to make new memories. I want to start all over again. And the only thing and idea I can think to accomplish all of this is to find a new place. A place where everyone thinks I’m a new one so that I can make good first impressions to them and there this will all start. I will start to erase those bad memories and bad feelings. I will also start to forget all of my hardships I’ve experienced with the worst people in my old and real world.
But how am I going to find a new place? How am I going to forget all of the bad memories and bad feelings if all of these were stuck in my mind? How am I going to live in a new world without the people I still love and the people who helped me with my hardships in the past? Maybe I cannot escape all of these for it is so hard to do. All of this things were already part of my life. What I can just do is move on and let go and start to be happy again, not in the new world I’m planning to live in but in this world where everything isn’t perfect, where every experience teaches me to love, to be strong and how to hold on.
ESCAFEISM is derived from the word "escapism", meaning to escape the world of reality. We called ourselves the Tumblr's Escapists because we are random bloggers who are escapists of what reality brings to us and how our feelings got affected on it. We are writing mostly about ourselves here. We are not just blogging here just because we can write long text posts, but because we've been through a lot of stuffs in our daily lives, we've felt almost everything, and we have different opinions.